Things are still moving slowly. Biggest problem we seem to have is an overabundance of things to do clogging the schedule and making it difficult to get motivated if anything gets out of whack. Of course I felt terrible yesterday and did not go to the Y. Between feeling exhausted and wrung out as well as have a headache that would not go away, I had no desire to go do anything.
We did get cleaning done, thanks to our friend Sarah coming over. It is weird walking around seeing clear floors in large areas of the house. Makes the whole place feel bigger. I am okay with that. Besides we do want to make sure that this place is clean and ready for Chinese New Year which is Thursday and we are celebrating on Saturday. The place should be nice and clean for that. Still have seating issues, but that is another matter.
The energy of the house feels better, between Cindy cleaning out the craft room and the rest of the house getting dealt with. The only problem room right now is Katie's, where the craft room stuff is getting put. But once the craft room is reorganized most of that stuff will go back into the craft room, so it is truly temporary. At this point I think we want to avoid any energy stagnation.
Still no job. Still looking.
So it goes.
Tuesday 1 February 2011
Week 3
Start Weight: 255.2
Weigh in: Total Loss: Wk .8
Points allowed: 38 Mo 0
Extra Points: 49 Overall 13.6
Exercise Points: 2
Measurements:
Bust 55.5 Panties: 9
Waist 49.75 Pants: 26
Hips 53 Top: 20
Arms 14.5 Bra 46 D
Thigh 27.5
Breakfast: 1 c Multigrain Cheerios 3 points
½ c Milk 1 points
1 c Irish Breakfast Tea 0 points
1 tsp Honey 1 point
Total 5 points
Points Left: 33
Lunch: 2 Chili Cheese dogs 12 points
Total 7 points
Points Left: 21
Dinner: Balsamic Salmon 9 points
Quinoa 3 Points
Roasted Asparagus 1 points
Roasted Carrots 1 points
Pears w/ Choc 2 points
Total 16 points
Points Left: 5
Snack: 1/2 c Choc Milk 2 points
94% Fate Free Popcorn 3 points
Kraut Dog 3 points
Peanut Butter Sandwich 5 points
1c Milk 3 points
Total 16 points
Points Left: -11
Exercise: Housework (15 min/ light) 1 points
Total + 1 points
Daily Total: -11
Extra Points Carry over: 41
Exercise Points Carry over: 0
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Showing posts with label exercise. Show all posts
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
Finally Friday
What I thought was interesting yesterday was that with the hat and goggles on I was swimming a good bit faster and harder yesterday. It was kind of strange. Th upside was that the work out was fantastic and I was really getting winded. The downside was that I was pretty wrung out by the end of the time at the Y. True did some stretching in the other pool but it really was fairly exhausting. The hot tub and steam room were nice though.
I need to remember to do other things besides swim, but the fact is that I really like swimming. Having been on swim teams when I was younger probably has something to do with the fact that I really love doing laps. It is fun, at least to my addled brain. :)
Doing weights and walking or biking will help provide variety for the muscles, letting them grow stronger. Besides, if I want to be able to do a triathlon or a marathon then I need to get back to running and walking is the start of that. I have wanted to do that ever since I saw both the New York Marathon and the Ironman. Both races were pretty intense when I first saw them and that really grabbed me. I wanted to do them before I was 40 but since I was injured I kind of put that on the backburner. I am doing better now so I am hoping to be able to do both. Hell, even a half marathon would be fun at this point.
Several things kept me from working out after I got out of the military. One was the fact that I was no longer in the Military and it was a novel thing to be able to relax and do a lot of nothing. Then there was the fact that that my shoulder hurt like hell all the time. I hadn't gotten in with pain management at that time and I was always in pain. Add in a good sized heaping mound of depression and is it any wonder I was a slug? As things started to get better I focused on school work and on rebuilding a social life. That kept me busy and not thinking about the fact that HRT was making me gain weight.
I still have shoulder pain, but between massage and pain clinic it doesn't bother me as much. Not nearly as depressed as I was and I am tired of being fat. I gained about 110 pounds thanks to lethargy, HRT, bad habits and metabolism slowdown. I am trying to fix this but it will undoubtedly take a while. Everyday I succeed at this plan is another day closer to weighing something sane.
My goal is to weigh between 155 and 160. I want to lose all that stupid weight I put on because I want to do more things and be healthy. This is going to be as rough as transition but in slightly different ways. Here's hoping it works.
And finally the chart for yesterday:
Thursday 27 Jan 2011
Start Weight: 260.8
Weigh in: 256.2 Total Loss: Wk +.2
Points allowed: 38 Mo 4.8
Extra Points: 29 Overall 12.8
Exercise Points: 0
Measurements:
Bust 55.5 Panties: 9
Waist 49.75 Pants: 26
Hips 53 Top: 20
Arms 14.5 Bra 46 D
Thigh 27.5
Breakfast: toast 1 point
Cheese 3 points
Tea 0 points
1 tsp honey 1 points
Total 5 points
Points Left: 33
Lunch: Mediterranean Rollini 9 points
Fruit 0 points
Salad 0 points
Hardboiled egg 2 points
¼ Cottage Cheese 3 points
Sunflower seeds (1 TBSP) 1 points
Balsamic Vinaigrette 2 points
Cindy’s salad 2 points
Total 19 points
Points Left: 14
Dinner: Steak 4 points
New Potatoes ½ cup 1 points
Roasted Veg 0 points
Olive Oil 2 points
Total 7 points
Points Left: 7
Snack: 1c Choc Milk 4 points
Total 4 points
Points Left: 3
Exercise: 30 min swimming, breaststroke 10 points
Total + 10 points
Daily Total: 3
Extra Points Carry over: 29
Exercise Points Carry over: 10
I need to remember to do other things besides swim, but the fact is that I really like swimming. Having been on swim teams when I was younger probably has something to do with the fact that I really love doing laps. It is fun, at least to my addled brain. :)
Doing weights and walking or biking will help provide variety for the muscles, letting them grow stronger. Besides, if I want to be able to do a triathlon or a marathon then I need to get back to running and walking is the start of that. I have wanted to do that ever since I saw both the New York Marathon and the Ironman. Both races were pretty intense when I first saw them and that really grabbed me. I wanted to do them before I was 40 but since I was injured I kind of put that on the backburner. I am doing better now so I am hoping to be able to do both. Hell, even a half marathon would be fun at this point.
Several things kept me from working out after I got out of the military. One was the fact that I was no longer in the Military and it was a novel thing to be able to relax and do a lot of nothing. Then there was the fact that that my shoulder hurt like hell all the time. I hadn't gotten in with pain management at that time and I was always in pain. Add in a good sized heaping mound of depression and is it any wonder I was a slug? As things started to get better I focused on school work and on rebuilding a social life. That kept me busy and not thinking about the fact that HRT was making me gain weight.
I still have shoulder pain, but between massage and pain clinic it doesn't bother me as much. Not nearly as depressed as I was and I am tired of being fat. I gained about 110 pounds thanks to lethargy, HRT, bad habits and metabolism slowdown. I am trying to fix this but it will undoubtedly take a while. Everyday I succeed at this plan is another day closer to weighing something sane.
My goal is to weigh between 155 and 160. I want to lose all that stupid weight I put on because I want to do more things and be healthy. This is going to be as rough as transition but in slightly different ways. Here's hoping it works.
And finally the chart for yesterday:
Thursday 27 Jan 2011
Start Weight: 260.8
Weigh in: 256.2 Total Loss: Wk +.2
Points allowed: 38 Mo 4.8
Extra Points: 29 Overall 12.8
Exercise Points: 0
Measurements:
Bust 55.5 Panties: 9
Waist 49.75 Pants: 26
Hips 53 Top: 20
Arms 14.5 Bra 46 D
Thigh 27.5
Breakfast: toast 1 point
Cheese 3 points
Tea 0 points
1 tsp honey 1 points
Total 5 points
Points Left: 33
Lunch: Mediterranean Rollini 9 points
Fruit 0 points
Salad 0 points
Hardboiled egg 2 points
¼ Cottage Cheese 3 points
Sunflower seeds (1 TBSP) 1 points
Balsamic Vinaigrette 2 points
Cindy’s salad 2 points
Total 19 points
Points Left: 14
Dinner: Steak 4 points
New Potatoes ½ cup 1 points
Roasted Veg 0 points
Olive Oil 2 points
Total 7 points
Points Left: 7
Snack: 1c Choc Milk 4 points
Total 4 points
Points Left: 3
Exercise: 30 min swimming, breaststroke 10 points
Total + 10 points
Daily Total: 3
Extra Points Carry over: 29
Exercise Points Carry over: 10
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Must be a Thursday
Well, I weighed in today for a mid week check and am up .2 pounds. Oh Noes! ;P
So far things are going well. This week has sucked for exercise but that happens. Between various other things coming up and migraines, exercise hasn't happened yet. Hopefully today we can make it to the Y for a little bit. I would like that. I usually feel better after that.
Wednesday 26 Jan 2011
Start Weight: 260.8
Weigh in: 256 Total Loss: Wk 0
Points allowed: 38 Mo 4.8
Extra Points: 29 Overall 12.8
Exercise Points: 0
Measurements:
Bust 55.5 Panties: 9
Waist 49.75 Pants: 26
Hips 53 Top: 20
Arms 14.5 Bra 46 D
Thigh 27.5
Breakfast: 2 eggs 6 points
2% Cheese 0 points
Green Chili Salsa 0 points
Apple Juice 3 points
Total 9 points
Points Left: 29
Lunch: Grilled Chicken Sandwich 6 points
Fries 7 points
Lemonade 4 points
Total 17 points
Points Left: 12
Dinner: Tilapia 2 points
Black beans 1 points
Cheese 1 points
Yellow Rice 5 points
Asparagus 0 points
Total 9 points
Points Left: 3
Snack: Apple 0 points
PB&J 5 points
1c Choc Milk 4 points
½ Cantaloupe 0 points
Total 9 points
Points Left: -6
Exercise: 0 points
Total + 0 points
Daily Total: -6
Extra Points Carry over: 23
Exercise Points Carry over: 0
So far things are going well. This week has sucked for exercise but that happens. Between various other things coming up and migraines, exercise hasn't happened yet. Hopefully today we can make it to the Y for a little bit. I would like that. I usually feel better after that.
Wednesday 26 Jan 2011
Start Weight: 260.8
Weigh in: 256 Total Loss: Wk 0
Points allowed: 38 Mo 4.8
Extra Points: 29 Overall 12.8
Exercise Points: 0
Measurements:
Bust 55.5 Panties: 9
Waist 49.75 Pants: 26
Hips 53 Top: 20
Arms 14.5 Bra 46 D
Thigh 27.5
Breakfast: 2 eggs 6 points
2% Cheese 0 points
Green Chili Salsa 0 points
Apple Juice 3 points
Total 9 points
Points Left: 29
Lunch: Grilled Chicken Sandwich 6 points
Fries 7 points
Lemonade 4 points
Total 17 points
Points Left: 12
Dinner: Tilapia 2 points
Black beans 1 points
Cheese 1 points
Yellow Rice 5 points
Asparagus 0 points
Total 9 points
Points Left: 3
Snack: Apple 0 points
PB&J 5 points
1c Choc Milk 4 points
½ Cantaloupe 0 points
Total 9 points
Points Left: -6
Exercise: 0 points
Total + 0 points
Daily Total: -6
Extra Points Carry over: 23
Exercise Points Carry over: 0
Friday, January 21, 2011
Yesterday's Info
Well, here is yesterday's form. I keep tinkering with these so expect things to change.
Friday 20 Jan 2011
Weigh in: 257.6 Total Loss: Wk 3.2
Points allowed: 39 Mo 3.2
Extra Points: 43 Overall 3.2
Exercise Points: 11
Measurements:
Bust 55.5 Panties: 9
Waist 49.75 Pants: 26
Hips 53 Top: 20
Arms 14.5 Bra 46 D
Thigh 27.5
Breakfast: Cream of Wheat 3 points
Hard Boiled Egg 2 points
Total 5 points
Points Left: 34
Lunch: 2 Crunchy Fresco Tacos 8 points
½ Mexican Pizza 7 points
1 Chicken Taco 4 point
Total 19 points
Points Left: 15
Snack: Chocolate milk (1 cup) 4 points
Total 4 points
Points Left: 11
Dinner: Chicken 4 points
Mashed Taters 3 points
Vegtable 1 points
Vegtable 0 points
Brownie 4 points
Milk 3 points
Total 15 points
Points Left: -4
Snack: Peanut Butter 3 points
Bread 2 points
Milk (1/2 cup) 1 points
Total 6 points
Points Left: -10
Exercise: Housework, Moderate 4 points
Total + 4 points
Daily Total: -10 – 4 - 6 = 0
Extra Points Carry over: 37
Exercise Points Carry over: 0
Things are looking good. Weight is dropping and exercise is happening. Something lit a fire under Cindy's butt and that is a good thing as we are now working towards losing the weight and getting healthy, since they are different things.
The other thing going on is that w are working on decluttering the house and cleaning it up for Chinese New Year. She is really working hard on the Craft Room and that is helping to break up some of the energy stagnation. That can help us overall in that the House energy will flow better and thus our own energy will flow better. At least that is the theory.
Friday 20 Jan 2011
Weigh in: 257.6 Total Loss: Wk 3.2
Points allowed: 39 Mo 3.2
Extra Points: 43 Overall 3.2
Exercise Points: 11
Measurements:
Bust 55.5 Panties: 9
Waist 49.75 Pants: 26
Hips 53 Top: 20
Arms 14.5 Bra 46 D
Thigh 27.5
Breakfast: Cream of Wheat 3 points
Hard Boiled Egg 2 points
Total 5 points
Points Left: 34
Lunch: 2 Crunchy Fresco Tacos 8 points
½ Mexican Pizza 7 points
1 Chicken Taco 4 point
Total 19 points
Points Left: 15
Snack: Chocolate milk (1 cup) 4 points
Total 4 points
Points Left: 11
Dinner: Chicken 4 points
Mashed Taters 3 points
Vegtable 1 points
Vegtable 0 points
Brownie 4 points
Milk 3 points
Total 15 points
Points Left: -4
Snack: Peanut Butter 3 points
Bread 2 points
Milk (1/2 cup) 1 points
Total 6 points
Points Left: -10
Exercise: Housework, Moderate 4 points
Total + 4 points
Daily Total: -10 – 4 - 6 = 0
Extra Points Carry over: 37
Exercise Points Carry over: 0
Things are looking good. Weight is dropping and exercise is happening. Something lit a fire under Cindy's butt and that is a good thing as we are now working towards losing the weight and getting healthy, since they are different things.
The other thing going on is that w are working on decluttering the house and cleaning it up for Chinese New Year. She is really working hard on the Craft Room and that is helping to break up some of the energy stagnation. That can help us overall in that the House energy will flow better and thus our own energy will flow better. At least that is the theory.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Things can change
I have started Weight Watchers again and am hoping it is more successful than last time. I did lose about 20 pounds but then I ended up on Remeron and swelled like a balloon. I hated that and ever since then my body has been soaking up the weight. That sucks. So here we go again.
We are also hitting the Y more recently, trying to get there daily but at least going every other day. The workout is nice and is helpful. There are good hopes for getting healthy and losing the weight.
Also what is interesting is that my body seems to be craving Martial Arts. I keep wanting to flow into moves that I haven't used in years. This isn't Tai Chi, this is more the Hard Art stuff like Hapkido and Shotokan. It is fairly strange but I can live with it. I guess at some point I need to just relax and let my body do what it wants. there may actually be a reason.
Here is my form for yesterday, containing the food and the exercise. This is how I am currently tracking the points. Enjoy.
Thursday 19 Jan 2011
Weigh in: 257.6
Points allowed: 39
Extra Points: 43
Exercise Points: 0
Total Loss:
Wk 3.2
Mo 3.2
Overall 3.2
Measurements:
Bust 55.5
Waist 49.75
Hips 53
Arms 14.5
Thigh 27.5
Panties: 9
Bra 46 D
Pants: 26
Top: 20
Breakfast: None 0 points
Total 0 points
Points Left: 39
Lunch: Baked Lays 3 points
6” Chicken Pesto Roll 10 points
6” CA Hummer 6 point
Lrg White Choc Macadamia 6 points
Total 25 points
Points Left: 14
Dinner: Salmon 6 points
Broccoli & Cauliflower 0 points
Basmati Rice 4 points
Brownie 5 points
Total 15 points
Points Left: -1
Exercise: 15 minutes walking 1 points
20 minutes weights 2 points
30 minutes swimming, breaststroke 9 points
Total + 12 points
Daily Total: -1-1= 0
Extra Points Carry over: 43
Exercise Points Carry over: 11
So things are starting to look good on this end at least in terms of getting started on both weight loss and exercise. Cindy is thinking of doing the Couch to 5k program and that sounds like it could be fun. I'll let you know how that is going.
The biggest thing I need to work on now is Spirit stuff. I am working on Jobs, getting published and the like but my Spirit work needs help. I do meditate some at the Y while I am in the steam room. I find it nice and relaxing. I will try to incorporate more of that into things.
Anyway... thanks for listening.
We are also hitting the Y more recently, trying to get there daily but at least going every other day. The workout is nice and is helpful. There are good hopes for getting healthy and losing the weight.
Also what is interesting is that my body seems to be craving Martial Arts. I keep wanting to flow into moves that I haven't used in years. This isn't Tai Chi, this is more the Hard Art stuff like Hapkido and Shotokan. It is fairly strange but I can live with it. I guess at some point I need to just relax and let my body do what it wants. there may actually be a reason.
Here is my form for yesterday, containing the food and the exercise. This is how I am currently tracking the points. Enjoy.
Thursday 19 Jan 2011
Weigh in: 257.6
Points allowed: 39
Extra Points: 43
Exercise Points: 0
Total Loss:
Wk 3.2
Mo 3.2
Overall 3.2
Measurements:
Bust 55.5
Waist 49.75
Hips 53
Arms 14.5
Thigh 27.5
Panties: 9
Bra 46 D
Pants: 26
Top: 20
Breakfast: None 0 points
Total 0 points
Points Left: 39
Lunch: Baked Lays 3 points
6” Chicken Pesto Roll 10 points
6” CA Hummer 6 point
Lrg White Choc Macadamia 6 points
Total 25 points
Points Left: 14
Dinner: Salmon 6 points
Broccoli & Cauliflower 0 points
Basmati Rice 4 points
Brownie 5 points
Total 15 points
Points Left: -1
Exercise: 15 minutes walking 1 points
20 minutes weights 2 points
30 minutes swimming, breaststroke 9 points
Total + 12 points
Daily Total: -1-1= 0
Extra Points Carry over: 43
Exercise Points Carry over: 11
So things are starting to look good on this end at least in terms of getting started on both weight loss and exercise. Cindy is thinking of doing the Couch to 5k program and that sounds like it could be fun. I'll let you know how that is going.
The biggest thing I need to work on now is Spirit stuff. I am working on Jobs, getting published and the like but my Spirit work needs help. I do meditate some at the Y while I am in the steam room. I find it nice and relaxing. I will try to incorporate more of that into things.
Anyway... thanks for listening.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Sunday night
Still hovering around 260. Not overly pleased but so it goes. The plan is to go to the Y in the morning. I am really hoping we do that but if the weather craps out like it is supposed to we may not make it. So it goes I guess.
Have started with the newest round of decluttering/ cleaning. I am hoping it goes well and helps clear the stagnation. I think attacking the Feng Shui might be the best course of action.
Have started with the newest round of decluttering/ cleaning. I am hoping it goes well and helps clear the stagnation. I think attacking the Feng Shui might be the best course of action.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Wow... over a month with nothing... sorry all five of my diligent readers. ;)
Anyway, news. Have started swimming again, which is a great goodness. Life has been on the crazy side so getting back to something I do honestly love is a good thing.
The House is being dealt with and no more trips up and back necessary for quite a while, which is good. We have to sell the place, but that can be dealt with fairly easily and with little stress. So, go us. That is a lot less stress than before and it has been a godsend.
I am on a new VA program called Telehealth. I have a little box hooked up to a scale and my computer. I basically weigh in a lot and do stuff daily on it. I think the idea is to keep it focused in your mind that you want to lose weight. Not a bad plan and it is worth a shot. I have lost some, as I was up to 267-268 and now am back to 261. That is a lot better for my mental health to see I am losing.
No news on the job front, which is depressing. I need to expand my search for work and then hopefully get a job that I can do and that I can get benefits from, so my family has coverage. That will be very nice.
On the writing front I have a new story that I think is very marketable. There is a lot of energy to it and the weird energy feelings I have had seem to be connected to it. The idea is pretty cool and seems to have loads of potential. I am looking forward to getting it done. Right now I am trying to finish 300 Rains.
I have not heard back from that one agent I sent something to nor have I heard back from Hillary's agent. So it goes.
That's it basically, my life in a nutshell.
Glad to be back.
Anyway, news. Have started swimming again, which is a great goodness. Life has been on the crazy side so getting back to something I do honestly love is a good thing.
The House is being dealt with and no more trips up and back necessary for quite a while, which is good. We have to sell the place, but that can be dealt with fairly easily and with little stress. So, go us. That is a lot less stress than before and it has been a godsend.
I am on a new VA program called Telehealth. I have a little box hooked up to a scale and my computer. I basically weigh in a lot and do stuff daily on it. I think the idea is to keep it focused in your mind that you want to lose weight. Not a bad plan and it is worth a shot. I have lost some, as I was up to 267-268 and now am back to 261. That is a lot better for my mental health to see I am losing.
No news on the job front, which is depressing. I need to expand my search for work and then hopefully get a job that I can do and that I can get benefits from, so my family has coverage. That will be very nice.
On the writing front I have a new story that I think is very marketable. There is a lot of energy to it and the weird energy feelings I have had seem to be connected to it. The idea is pretty cool and seems to have loads of potential. I am looking forward to getting it done. Right now I am trying to finish 300 Rains.
I have not heard back from that one agent I sent something to nor have I heard back from Hillary's agent. So it goes.
That's it basically, my life in a nutshell.
Glad to be back.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Painting fun
So very sore, as yesterday was a serious work day. We were up at the House and were there for about 6 hours. In that six hours I worked roughly 5 hours straight painting, standing a good portion of that. I was quivering, with my legs and arms just vibrating at the edge of immanent failure. Not good one way, fairly okay the next.
The benefit was that it was a lot of work done and that I was able to do it. That was impressive and not something I knew I could do. So positive there. Plus it is good exercise. Another positive.
The plan is to hit the Y later and I am looking forward to swimming and the Hot tub. I am thinking I might hot tub and then swim, in order to loosen my muscles up. Can't hurt.
The benefit was that it was a lot of work done and that I was able to do it. That was impressive and not something I knew I could do. So positive there. Plus it is good exercise. Another positive.
The plan is to hit the Y later and I am looking forward to swimming and the Hot tub. I am thinking I might hot tub and then swim, in order to loosen my muscles up. Can't hurt.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Update
Swam the other day, and that felt nice but lately it has been more work at the house in Gallatin than anything else. This of course means our diet is pretty screwed up as well. We really need to fix this as I am more than tired about weighing about 260. I want our life to settle down enough so that we will be able to get in better shape. After the first yard sale there was a lull and that was good, but now... We can do this, but our sore bodies and exhaustion are making it far more difficult. I want to get healthy and we aren't there yet.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Rub, rub, rub
Well, got a massage today and I am hoping to go swimming today as I could use the workout and the hot tub would be a great goodness. I need to sell the plan to Cindy but I don't think it will be a hard sell. The heat and the buoyancy will help us both.
This work on my side and the deep tissue work Brian is doing on my shoulder is painful but I swear, my shoulder is loosening up. I can only hope that the pain will fade and I will have full use of my shoulder, or at least a lot more that I have now.
This work on my side and the deep tissue work Brian is doing on my shoulder is painful but I swear, my shoulder is loosening up. I can only hope that the pain will fade and I will have full use of my shoulder, or at least a lot more that I have now.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Y?
Life has been crazy lately and we haven't made it to the Y in several days. I miss it, but we are so busy what with the reception that was last night, the shower today, Katie's visit from Kent and the usual insane life stuff. So because of that Monday is the restart day for the Y. Granted this isn't completely a stop, but it isn't a couple of days off. Gotta fight to keep the momentum going.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Today
Exercise was good today. No swimming thanks to the little medical issue, so we did the weights and I did 15 minutes on the recumbent bikes. It was a nice work out. Tomorrow I am hoping to swim and this time for 30-35 minutes. That should be fun.
We are still working on our diet but once we get that settled we will be doing well.
We are still working on our diet but once we get that settled we will be doing well.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Watery fun
Yesterday I worked out for about 2 hours between aquatic PT, weights, walking in water and water aerobics. It was a nice workout. Today I swam for 25 minutes straight, which was nice as well. 40 more laps and that would be a mile. If I can swim for an hour straight I should be able to do that.
I am enjoying the exercise.
I am enjoying the exercise.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Life is continuing on it's crazy way. So nothing new there.
I had the most useless KT appointment ever where the woman simply told me things I already knew and didn't give me any advice on how to modify exercises to compensate for my bad shoulder. Cindy and I are heading off to the Y to get back into the place and work on going there everyday for a workout. That will doubtless help and I am looking forward to swimming and the hot tub. Like for real.
My ankle still hurts but now we know that it has some sort of soft tissue damage to it. Apparently the fact that I have rested it, iced it, etc... does not matter, as that was the advice given to me by the nurse. I need an actual solution to this problem and not just telling me things I already know.
In terms of work, I sent in a query letter to a literary agency. Here's hoping that they are interested in Transitioning Home and decide that they can sell it. I would appreciate that a good deal, as income is sexy. Besides, I want to start on the whole making money from my writing thing and have that as my primary form of employment. So I at least took a first step.
Spiritually I am in a kind of ambivalent place. I am feeling a really interesting tug of war internally between utterly embracing what my spirit is doing on one hand and sort of remaining in this world on the other. I am wanting a place of balance between them but that is getting harder to find. Maslow's Hierarchy of needs is pretty accurate since I am so worried about mundane stuff that my faith is in fifth place or further back. So that is definitely going to take some work as situations permit.
So, there you go.
I had the most useless KT appointment ever where the woman simply told me things I already knew and didn't give me any advice on how to modify exercises to compensate for my bad shoulder. Cindy and I are heading off to the Y to get back into the place and work on going there everyday for a workout. That will doubtless help and I am looking forward to swimming and the hot tub. Like for real.
My ankle still hurts but now we know that it has some sort of soft tissue damage to it. Apparently the fact that I have rested it, iced it, etc... does not matter, as that was the advice given to me by the nurse. I need an actual solution to this problem and not just telling me things I already know.
In terms of work, I sent in a query letter to a literary agency. Here's hoping that they are interested in Transitioning Home and decide that they can sell it. I would appreciate that a good deal, as income is sexy. Besides, I want to start on the whole making money from my writing thing and have that as my primary form of employment. So I at least took a first step.
Spiritually I am in a kind of ambivalent place. I am feeling a really interesting tug of war internally between utterly embracing what my spirit is doing on one hand and sort of remaining in this world on the other. I am wanting a place of balance between them but that is getting harder to find. Maslow's Hierarchy of needs is pretty accurate since I am so worried about mundane stuff that my faith is in fifth place or further back. So that is definitely going to take some work as situations permit.
So, there you go.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Update and musing on Portion Porblems
Well, Whedonfest is over and now time to get back into the serious work of trying to fix issues in my life.
Lets see... the Job fair gave me some interesting options as well as show me a MA program that sounds interesting and a good use of my skills. So there is some hope on the job front.
Ankle still hurts, so a lot of good exercise options are out. I need to get that looked at but the MRI isn't until 21 Aug and that means it isn't until probably September that something will be done about that. Totally fucking sucks. Maybe I just need to ignore the VA and treat this myself? It is worth considering.
My faith is going well, but I really should meditate more. I feel better after doing it so there really isn't a reason that I am not meditating except for the fact that my depression is making me want to hide from the world rather than deal with it. Gotta get over that crap.
House is semi trashed, but duh... Whedonfest. It did really well this year, but we do need to catch up on making the home environment serene...
So there you have that update. Now onto the other stuff.
Okay, so I am at 261 right now and that is disturbing. I hate this craziness that’s going on with my weight. It is really bothering me, especially because it isn’t like I eat badly. I like vegetables and salads, and all sorts of good for you food. Hell eating just chicken or fish would not be a huge hardship. The problem for me seems to be portion control. I don’t eat a lot of deserts or empty calories but I eat a lot of normal food.
I like food and truly enjoy eating excellent food. I am not sure as to why I seem to be more focused on eating larger amounts of food than I should but I need it to stop. I suppose I should get to weighing and measuring all of my food, so I only eat single portions and the like, but I am worried that I will fail. I guess that is a common worry for most anyone doing any weight loss plan. I just don’t seem to have a good idea in my head as to what exactly good portion sizes are. I know the pack of cards and those other measures but in a lot of ways that doesn’t really seem to help me. I guess I need to hunt that all down again and start seriously following it.
The other issue tied into this is that I seem to be the one in my family that ‘finishes’ food, thus getting extra. I have a difficult time turning down food or not completing my meals. Part of it has to do with the fact that my mother constantly talked about eating her monies worth. Paying for food and then not eating ALL of it really bugged her. She talked about that wasting money, which it is, but the message I took was not avoid over ordering but rather eat everything and then some, so there is a good value for your money spent.
Growing up, my mom loved taking my brother Brian and my best friend Tony out to all you could eat places. The joke about ‘You here four hour. You scare my wife.’ seemed to be very true in relation to our meals. Granted teenaged boys really burn calories but my mom did get a smug satisfaction when we would go someplace like Chesapeake Seafood House and eat all their food. The place stopped having an all you can eat night after we went there for the third time and ate for something like two + hours. It was obscene. But my mom considered it a great value.
I love getting the all you can eat sushi at Cathay and Cindy and I actually sit back and calculate the value of what I have eaten versus the value of what we paid. My personal best was a little over 60 dollars of sushi for 14 dollars. That is a lot of sushi. Now I don’t feel so bad about that, as sushi is not really that bad for you and that much sushi didn’t blow my weight watchers points for the day. But it does let me know that I have developed a similar mindset.
I have been proud lately of actually eating my meal and leaving food, especially eating out. Part of that is the ever increasing size of portions and the other bit is that I recognize that I DO NOT need to eat everything on my plate, that getting full is a great stopping point. I don’t like feeling bloated and way over fed. I get really food coma-ish and that is not comfortable.
Places I really enjoy the all you can eat thing and it not be a problem is at Ruby Tuesday. I can eat huge amounts of salad and be fine. The only bad things I eat there are the cottage cheese and maybe pickled beets. I really don’t put too much extra cheese on the salads as well. So that is not too bad, but otherwise, I really do eat a hell of a lot, volume wise. I need to eat less volume and I am sure that alone will have a major impact on my weight. Maybe even reducing the bad cards and sticking with the complex carbs the body needs. I don’t know. Sometimes I feel like nothing but a hog, stuffing itself for market and that isn’t good for anyone.
I hate this shit.
So I am going to try and reduce my portion sizes. That will hopefully help. Add in eating better and that can hopefully really help my weight. I have a lot of hopefuls here and those are never guarantees, but you gotta try. I don’t want gastric bypass, but if I can’t do this and I keep gaining then it might be the only decent option I have available. Man that sucks. Effort first then surgery… The fact that I am even considering it distresses me but I am aware that I don’t want to heat into the upper twos or the threes and low fours that Brian got to. What a crap time to realize that HRT probably shifted my metabolism closer to my mom, sisters and brothers. So it goes.
Any way, here’s hoping that I can make this work.
Lets see... the Job fair gave me some interesting options as well as show me a MA program that sounds interesting and a good use of my skills. So there is some hope on the job front.
Ankle still hurts, so a lot of good exercise options are out. I need to get that looked at but the MRI isn't until 21 Aug and that means it isn't until probably September that something will be done about that. Totally fucking sucks. Maybe I just need to ignore the VA and treat this myself? It is worth considering.
My faith is going well, but I really should meditate more. I feel better after doing it so there really isn't a reason that I am not meditating except for the fact that my depression is making me want to hide from the world rather than deal with it. Gotta get over that crap.
House is semi trashed, but duh... Whedonfest. It did really well this year, but we do need to catch up on making the home environment serene...
So there you have that update. Now onto the other stuff.
Okay, so I am at 261 right now and that is disturbing. I hate this craziness that’s going on with my weight. It is really bothering me, especially because it isn’t like I eat badly. I like vegetables and salads, and all sorts of good for you food. Hell eating just chicken or fish would not be a huge hardship. The problem for me seems to be portion control. I don’t eat a lot of deserts or empty calories but I eat a lot of normal food.
I like food and truly enjoy eating excellent food. I am not sure as to why I seem to be more focused on eating larger amounts of food than I should but I need it to stop. I suppose I should get to weighing and measuring all of my food, so I only eat single portions and the like, but I am worried that I will fail. I guess that is a common worry for most anyone doing any weight loss plan. I just don’t seem to have a good idea in my head as to what exactly good portion sizes are. I know the pack of cards and those other measures but in a lot of ways that doesn’t really seem to help me. I guess I need to hunt that all down again and start seriously following it.
The other issue tied into this is that I seem to be the one in my family that ‘finishes’ food, thus getting extra. I have a difficult time turning down food or not completing my meals. Part of it has to do with the fact that my mother constantly talked about eating her monies worth. Paying for food and then not eating ALL of it really bugged her. She talked about that wasting money, which it is, but the message I took was not avoid over ordering but rather eat everything and then some, so there is a good value for your money spent.
Growing up, my mom loved taking my brother Brian and my best friend Tony out to all you could eat places. The joke about ‘You here four hour. You scare my wife.’ seemed to be very true in relation to our meals. Granted teenaged boys really burn calories but my mom did get a smug satisfaction when we would go someplace like Chesapeake Seafood House and eat all their food. The place stopped having an all you can eat night after we went there for the third time and ate for something like two + hours. It was obscene. But my mom considered it a great value.
I love getting the all you can eat sushi at Cathay and Cindy and I actually sit back and calculate the value of what I have eaten versus the value of what we paid. My personal best was a little over 60 dollars of sushi for 14 dollars. That is a lot of sushi. Now I don’t feel so bad about that, as sushi is not really that bad for you and that much sushi didn’t blow my weight watchers points for the day. But it does let me know that I have developed a similar mindset.
I have been proud lately of actually eating my meal and leaving food, especially eating out. Part of that is the ever increasing size of portions and the other bit is that I recognize that I DO NOT need to eat everything on my plate, that getting full is a great stopping point. I don’t like feeling bloated and way over fed. I get really food coma-ish and that is not comfortable.
Places I really enjoy the all you can eat thing and it not be a problem is at Ruby Tuesday. I can eat huge amounts of salad and be fine. The only bad things I eat there are the cottage cheese and maybe pickled beets. I really don’t put too much extra cheese on the salads as well. So that is not too bad, but otherwise, I really do eat a hell of a lot, volume wise. I need to eat less volume and I am sure that alone will have a major impact on my weight. Maybe even reducing the bad cards and sticking with the complex carbs the body needs. I don’t know. Sometimes I feel like nothing but a hog, stuffing itself for market and that isn’t good for anyone.
I hate this shit.
So I am going to try and reduce my portion sizes. That will hopefully help. Add in eating better and that can hopefully really help my weight. I have a lot of hopefuls here and those are never guarantees, but you gotta try. I don’t want gastric bypass, but if I can’t do this and I keep gaining then it might be the only decent option I have available. Man that sucks. Effort first then surgery… The fact that I am even considering it distresses me but I am aware that I don’t want to heat into the upper twos or the threes and low fours that Brian got to. What a crap time to realize that HRT probably shifted my metabolism closer to my mom, sisters and brothers. So it goes.
Any way, here’s hoping that I can make this work.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
The long and winding road
Dealing with the passing of Cindy's mom is making all of this harder to do. I am trying to get mostly vegetables and chicken and stuff, but I slip sometimes. The fish taco last night was pretty good, so it's not like chicken is not as good as red meat, but I do like red meat's taste.
Bit by bit I am working on making this happen, but recently it seems harder. I want to go walking but my ankle hurts and whenever I do any decent amount of walking it hurts, throbbing in an uncomfortable way. I need that dealt with before I can start walking as much as possible. I want to move but my body is conspiring against me. So it goes.
Bit by bit I am working on making this happen, but recently it seems harder. I want to go walking but my ankle hurts and whenever I do any decent amount of walking it hurts, throbbing in an uncomfortable way. I need that dealt with before I can start walking as much as possible. I want to move but my body is conspiring against me. So it goes.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Yet again
Well, I am going to start trying the weight watcher thing again today. It did work, up until about 2.5 months so I'm not sure what that is all about, but I am trying to figure that out. I plan on doing some stretches and crunches later, but that covers it. I am waiting to see what happens, job search wise, as I have heard nothing back. I keep telling myself that it has only been a week since things were finalized. 11 days, mind you, but only one business week. Maybe I should refocus and look at Agents.
So anyway, here we go again.
So anyway, here we go again.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Just how often do I need to hit restart?
Am I a terrible blogger or what?
Any way...
I am going to start this again. I think my Beloved is right in the recovery track. That might be the best way to face this and indeed the term Jihad does have its roots in fighting against ourselves to better connect to God/ Allah/ FSM/ whoever... The Greater Jihad is all about fighting against your urge to do the easy path, to not put in the work for something. And recovery is all about fighting inertia and doing the work. This isn't going to be easy but it will be worth it, if I can get off my fat ass and do it.
Biggest problem right now is that my ankle is screwed up to the point where walking is less than enjoyable, and that is for short trips like the bathroom. But there are things I can do, like crunches, stretches, working with weights and the like. It is at least a start on that front. Also diet is also something that can be addressed more and there I feel hampered by Katie and her extreme pickiness. We really need to get past her issues and cook for ourselves. When we have done that Katie has been fed as well, but we eat decent.
Weight Watchers was working, ish, but not well enough, as it was easy to skip things or loose track. I think it might be worth following up on but I don't know. I do know that we have to fairly radically change things if we want this to work.
Still no joy on the job front. I am finishing up my application for a job and if I got it, it would be great, but I am unsure as to what my options are. I need to actually get going on the publishing front, to try and sell my novel, because that would be good. I feel conflicted. The VA might be sending me back to school, which would be lovely, as that would mean money, but again, going back to school would be both fun and stressful.
Life is kind of like that... you know...
Any way...
I am going to start this again. I think my Beloved is right in the recovery track. That might be the best way to face this and indeed the term Jihad does have its roots in fighting against ourselves to better connect to God/ Allah/ FSM/ whoever... The Greater Jihad is all about fighting against your urge to do the easy path, to not put in the work for something. And recovery is all about fighting inertia and doing the work. This isn't going to be easy but it will be worth it, if I can get off my fat ass and do it.
Biggest problem right now is that my ankle is screwed up to the point where walking is less than enjoyable, and that is for short trips like the bathroom. But there are things I can do, like crunches, stretches, working with weights and the like. It is at least a start on that front. Also diet is also something that can be addressed more and there I feel hampered by Katie and her extreme pickiness. We really need to get past her issues and cook for ourselves. When we have done that Katie has been fed as well, but we eat decent.
Weight Watchers was working, ish, but not well enough, as it was easy to skip things or loose track. I think it might be worth following up on but I don't know. I do know that we have to fairly radically change things if we want this to work.
Still no joy on the job front. I am finishing up my application for a job and if I got it, it would be great, but I am unsure as to what my options are. I need to actually get going on the publishing front, to try and sell my novel, because that would be good. I feel conflicted. The VA might be sending me back to school, which would be lovely, as that would mean money, but again, going back to school would be both fun and stressful.
Life is kind of like that... you know...
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Irritation at my stagnation
So, what I am really irked at myself about is the exercise thing. I want to do it but I am very sedentary. I get stuck in this push and pull thing that basically keeps me motionless for the most part. That bugs me. The problem is that I have no idea how to overcome this inertia.
Part of the problem is that my metabolism slowed way down once I started HRT. That is not an excuse but rather a fact. Because of this metabolism issue I have gotten corpulent, clocking back in at 250. The issues with my shoulder are a huge reason why a lot of exercise goes awry. If I walk for a long time or run it aches. This is a big issue as it severely limits my ability to do anything.
I am not sure what to do here. I have been thinking of charting things like time exercising and steps taken and weight but again, I am not sure if it will work. I feel stuck in Neutral and I can't seem to get into Drive. Maybe the Universe needs to give me some sort of kick in the ass. Or maybe it is, who knows. Fact is, I know lots of stuff but don't really use it. That has to stop. I know what to do so I should just fucking do it.
Great now I'm a Nike add, next I suppose I will say something about Be all you can be. How very Army. That doesn't make it a lie but it is an annoying bit of propaganda.
I just gotta fucking move and attack this weight issue aggressively. How bad could it get?
Part of the problem is that my metabolism slowed way down once I started HRT. That is not an excuse but rather a fact. Because of this metabolism issue I have gotten corpulent, clocking back in at 250. The issues with my shoulder are a huge reason why a lot of exercise goes awry. If I walk for a long time or run it aches. This is a big issue as it severely limits my ability to do anything.
I am not sure what to do here. I have been thinking of charting things like time exercising and steps taken and weight but again, I am not sure if it will work. I feel stuck in Neutral and I can't seem to get into Drive. Maybe the Universe needs to give me some sort of kick in the ass. Or maybe it is, who knows. Fact is, I know lots of stuff but don't really use it. That has to stop. I know what to do so I should just fucking do it.
Great now I'm a Nike add, next I suppose I will say something about Be all you can be. How very Army. That doesn't make it a lie but it is an annoying bit of propaganda.
I just gotta fucking move and attack this weight issue aggressively. How bad could it get?
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Ugh...
Well, I finished Soldier Boy, which is most excellent. Now I can start hunting Agents. If it sells I can make this money I have heard so much about!
Uhm... haven't really been recording my eating this week so I am a bit afraid of what my weight is going to be. Recording the food and following the points really works well. I highly recommend it.
I cleaned part of the garage and then moved some rock and wood to frame the front garden. That was very sweaty work, so it was probably good for me.
So that's where today is.
Thanks,
Uhm... haven't really been recording my eating this week so I am a bit afraid of what my weight is going to be. Recording the food and following the points really works well. I highly recommend it.
I cleaned part of the garage and then moved some rock and wood to frame the front garden. That was very sweaty work, so it was probably good for me.
So that's where today is.
Thanks,
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